Preface
PART 1
1. The Eight-Year-Old, Part 1: The New York School of Ballet
2. How to Be a Ballerina, Part 1
3. The Eight-Year-Old, Part 2: The Greek
4. How to Be a Ballerina, Part 2
5. The Triple
6. How to Be a Ballerina, Part 3
7. The Eleven-Year-Old, Part 1: The Audition
8. The Eleven-Year-Old, Part 2: Madame Dudin
9. How to Be a Ballerina, Part 4
10. The First Nutcracker
11. Waving Goodbye
12. Detective Work
13. Stretching
14. The Fifteen-Year-Old and Mr. Rapp
15. The Sixteen-Year-Old’s Epiphany, Part 1
16. The Sixteen-Year-Old’s Epiphany, Part 2
17. Tumey
18. Making Shapes
19. Crumpled
20. Turning Point
PART 2
21. The Summer of 1992
22. Chateau Ste. Michelle: My Big Break
23. Making a Living Being Tired
24. Ballerina Doll
25. Orange
26. Cinderella
27. Rejected
28. Glace Bay
29. Vertigo, Part 1
30. The Rib-Cracking Episode
31. “You Were the Music”
32. Boo Hoo, Jeremy Denk
33. Suzanne
34. Places
35. Quivering
36. I Think I Was Perfect, Once
37. Henry’s Living Room
38. The Fourth Wall
39. Big Hair
40. Theaters Are Mysterious Places
41. Into the Night
42. A Prayer
43. Curtain In
44. Helena
45. “I’ve Never Heard You Make a Noise Like That”
46. The Human Monolith
47. A Conversation with My Feet
48. My Little Toe
49. The Millionth Nutcracker
50. No Tights
51. The Highest Note
52. Vertigo, Part 2
53. Scarred
54. A Boyfriend and a Cat
55. Precision, Perfection, and Mistakes
56. Final Curtain
57. The Drive Home
Afterword: The Time I Taught Someone Something
Acknowledgments
Appendix 1. Meeting My Maker
Appendix 2. How to . . .
Appendix 3. Places I’ve Performed